fatvegan

I've stopped studying for all my subjects. I need to study for econometrics the most because it's totally the hardest, and the only one I'm likely to drop this Wednesday. So I spend all my study time studying for that. But because it's so frightening, I don't study for it either. So I'm in a spot of bother. I've read and read the textbooks, but I seriously have very little idea what's going on in chapter 2, and we're up to chapter 11 and 16. I had to read the first chapters over and over, so I didn't get to the middle chapters like 4, 5, 6 and 8. You'd hope that would mean I had a good grasp of chapter 2. But it doesn't. We have this question that assessable and due on Thursday. I can look at it, and understand how incredibly easy it is. There are no tricks. It's totally straight-forward. But I have no idea how to start it.

Tuesday - I decided yesterday. that I would drop this course. I can't even do the homework questions, so I reckon I'll fail the exams. I went and told my lecturer I would drop it today and she was fine with it. I asked her if she knew anything about people who might do tutoring, but she didn't. I wonder if the reason she was so worried when my friend dropped out was that he did it before the date for financial penalty. In a class with 10 students, you have to worry about that sort of thing.

But the more I've thought about it, the more the risk of failing seems less important. I suspect it will prevent me from getting jobs, but maybe that's not as bad as having to spend an extra year or semester at uni. But maybe I have to forget about trying to do things well. I only have to understand the easiest 50% of the course. It feels like that must be achievable. I just wish I could find someone to explain it to me.